In a way, tonight was bittersweet. Tonight, was the night I took initiative and stood on a street corner for over 2 hours passing out flyers for the Prop. 8 protest on Saturday.
Although I feel pride that I am actually taking a proactive step and speaking out and standing up for my community, my heart is not quite full tonight.
It was surprising to me that I had to explain exactly what Prop 8 meant to the GLBT community. Probably 1 in 10 people tonight asked me “what is Prop 8?”. This breaks my heart today. How can the people within the LGBT community be so ignorant? How do you not know what the issues are? I began to take an educational approach to everyone, because it seems that more people would actually rather run across the street to the bar rather than pick up a simple flyer that witholds their civil rights. What is that? Do we no longer care as a community? When did we become so self-involved that we not longer stand up for ourselves and our community.
Why is it that my eyes weep tears of joy when I see 10,000 people marching in L.A., and then I see 12,000 people marching in San Francisco. When did we become so de-sensitized that we cannot see the plight of the ones that are fighting for our rights? This week has shown me not only the ignorance of the people who voted for Prop 8, but also the ignorance within our community.
I do want to point out, I am not calling anyone stupid, I am saying that there is a lack of knowledge in the community as we speak.
Tonight, I was asked questions like “what is Prop 8?”, “why should it matter if I am in Texas”, and the most hateful of all is a cold shoulder from my own community. I do not know how many times I was side stepped, resisited, or ignored tonight. I even had someone crumple up the papers they were given right in front of me.
Tonight I think was a triumph, because I handed out so many flyers and informed so many people and gave my all in this effort, but to us as a community we should be ashamed. We should be ashamed that while there are 4 people promoting our rights there are 300 people in the bar across the street. We should be ashamed that we turn a cold shoulder to those that are asking for their help in ensuring their future. We should be ashamed that 1% of the community is fighting for the rights of all.
I beg and plead that on Saturday you get your ass out of your hungover stupor and you come support something that rather you know it or not affects your rights. You may not appreciate this now, but you will when it effects you!